Perempuan atypical

We watched indie teater with my siblings and my close friend fara. One of the stand up comedy talked about how complicated woman is : some I agreed but mostly I totally rejected. Grumbled a lot. Eh saya mana ada buat awak tunggu lama lama dlm kereta, movie- saya list out apa nk tgk then we decide saya beli online. Eh makan lagilah even awak panggil saya ni lavish restaurant je masuk kata awak tapi saya jenis bukan lembap pilih menu. Eh Im not like that, saya nak beli kasut saya beli je tak perlu lah kecoh kat awak duit saya sendiri kot.

At last , he smiled. "Hello u, that guy talked about TYPICAL women . Awak tu atypical perempuan. Mcm atypical pneumonia. "
"What samakan saya dgn pneumonia?"
"Atypical - bukan pnuemonia"
"I take that as compliment".

"Mana ada perempuan boleh cerita hal politic dalam dan luar negara dgn nama pemimpin dia. Belum lagi tahu politik UG atau tak. Perempuan lain tak minat nak kisah. "

So true : u dont need to talk bout good things in front of your love one in order to impress them since they dont see it as count mark. They value it differently

Katil

"Apa number katil?" Dia soal.
Aku terus stuck dkt depan pintu."katil?" Aku rephrase balik. Naik satu oktaf. Alarm his sleepy after 24 hours non stop working. That's what im thinking.
"Sorry sorry, saya teringat ward". Oh ok.
Sampai pintu kena tolak aku nk tarik.

But we watching demonic like adrenaline is in the morning.



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Time for me to start back fiction story. My dream to have at least 1 novel hahaha.

When I sleep

when I sleep, in the middle of the night,
You are still busy in the middle of the room;
Far in southern west from kuala lumpur,
Busy of setting the line,
Run one pint normal saline,
Full sweat to do cpr to bmi 40 person,
Run and fast like watching medical drama series,
Like your energy is as at last 24 hours yesterday morning.

Allah's count every your deeds dear,
Just ignore those who yelled at you, complaint of knew nothing,
As you did for the sake of humanity,
For the good health of mankind,
For the trust that public give to you since you hold the MD at the back of your name.

I'm proud of you,
Being medical officer for medical ward,
As people told as killing posting,
U bear on it. U hold the grudge,
You take the risk driving 1 hour 30 mins from home at 4am just to ensure reach there earlier,
When we saw each other on weekend or after your postcall,
Your adrenaline is still back at stage 1,
Like yesterday never happen. Your smile is still the same.

May Allah bless you.
Be the good life saver H.
His counting your deed as ticket to jannah.

Dia

in every time you always be there

Sabar dan salah

Angkara gagal menempatkan gambar ke klcc aku mahu coretkan satu cerita. Bukan suria klcc yang tiap hari lalu naik train. Tapi bridge dan menara tu. nantilah bila dah fixed error aku ada mood aku postkan.

I dont know how to start, during pilgrim last year. A month I learned the word patient. Patient without news and even to say goodbye. Lost hope actually. "Semoga kita jumpa lagi". Im crying heartly (tengah ramai tetamu dkt rumah sbb majlis kahwin adik), cover air mata. Sejak itu aku belajar satu perkara ucapan kata biar baik sebab takut itu yang terakhir. Dua minggu pertama aku cuba cari jalan utk hubungi, gagal. Dua minggu kedua aku pasrah tp kalau teringat aku doakan dia selamat. Kesal terbit sbb paling tidak aku nak jugak cakap semoga haji mabrur. Tak sempat semua tu.

Sabar ... Akhirnya hari ni kami dpt jumpa. As he quite important and significant in community . Believe or not i had note the topic i want to discuss with him. May Allah bless us . May we in right path. Amin

Aku cerita tak habis. Aku selalu rasa bersalah, after working hour resident medical officer takde dekat ofice aku, jadi aku lantik dia tanpa surat rasmi jadi medical advisor. Aku nak buat decision takkan nak tunggu esok, dah lari turn around table ( H if you read this i know you will mengomel, not involve nyawa) but wrong decision lead to harta company gedebum berkecai. Tapi aku ada hobby mengarut, if aku in tense pada skala 10 richter. Mcm hari tu purse aku hilang, aku angin +cuak:angin dgn kecuaian diri seniri, cuak sbb esoknya aku nak travel document n card inside it. Pepagi aku ngadu siap pesan :"awak kalau pegi solat jumaat, doakan saya jumpa purse tu tau". Dia reply . Pastu mula episode bersalah aku, H might probably waktu read your wassap base on blue tick tengah: a)attending patient , b)ward round and present case c)tgh set line /branula/any procedur to his patient dan aku mcm budak kecik mohon nak curhat on the spot. So any H patient im sorry. Kalau oncall aku whatsapp H will reply after postcall- he aware tp slalu lepas tu aku doa jgnlah time whatsapp aku H baca ada kes nyawa hilang dan harap time H glanced tu dia tgh mode rileks.

I learn that they in medical line ni berkorban memacam sebenarnya. Do you know how Im gettin freak and mad bila dia cerita tido tepi jalan inside the car offcourse sebab penat Tuhan je tahu. They try their best to save other's life but for their own sake -mqasid syariah pun dia aci redah. I was like , kalau kena rompak mcm mana? Itu tak masuk your dokter bangun jam 4.30 pagi nak make sure bleh sampai hospital on time since his house to hospital take about 1 h 30 mins. So kekadang (selalu) tp terpaksa - maka buat aku rasa bersalah when H reply my whatsapp. Somehow i have note tau, when we meet up - apa yg saya nak tanya n discuss dgn dia ---- so H if marriage might be part of our discussion aci ke tak?