Sabar dan salah

Angkara gagal menempatkan gambar ke klcc aku mahu coretkan satu cerita. Bukan suria klcc yang tiap hari lalu naik train. Tapi bridge dan menara tu. nantilah bila dah fixed error aku ada mood aku postkan.

I dont know how to start, during pilgrim last year. A month I learned the word patient. Patient without news and even to say goodbye. Lost hope actually. "Semoga kita jumpa lagi". Im crying heartly (tengah ramai tetamu dkt rumah sbb majlis kahwin adik), cover air mata. Sejak itu aku belajar satu perkara ucapan kata biar baik sebab takut itu yang terakhir. Dua minggu pertama aku cuba cari jalan utk hubungi, gagal. Dua minggu kedua aku pasrah tp kalau teringat aku doakan dia selamat. Kesal terbit sbb paling tidak aku nak jugak cakap semoga haji mabrur. Tak sempat semua tu.

Sabar ... Akhirnya hari ni kami dpt jumpa. As he quite important and significant in community . Believe or not i had note the topic i want to discuss with him. May Allah bless us . May we in right path. Amin

Aku cerita tak habis. Aku selalu rasa bersalah, after working hour resident medical officer takde dekat ofice aku, jadi aku lantik dia tanpa surat rasmi jadi medical advisor. Aku nak buat decision takkan nak tunggu esok, dah lari turn around table ( H if you read this i know you will mengomel, not involve nyawa) but wrong decision lead to harta company gedebum berkecai. Tapi aku ada hobby mengarut, if aku in tense pada skala 10 richter. Mcm hari tu purse aku hilang, aku angin +cuak:angin dgn kecuaian diri seniri, cuak sbb esoknya aku nak travel document n card inside it. Pepagi aku ngadu siap pesan :"awak kalau pegi solat jumaat, doakan saya jumpa purse tu tau". Dia reply . Pastu mula episode bersalah aku, H might probably waktu read your wassap base on blue tick tengah: a)attending patient , b)ward round and present case c)tgh set line /branula/any procedur to his patient dan aku mcm budak kecik mohon nak curhat on the spot. So any H patient im sorry. Kalau oncall aku whatsapp H will reply after postcall- he aware tp slalu lepas tu aku doa jgnlah time whatsapp aku H baca ada kes nyawa hilang dan harap time H glanced tu dia tgh mode rileks.

I learn that they in medical line ni berkorban memacam sebenarnya. Do you know how Im gettin freak and mad bila dia cerita tido tepi jalan inside the car offcourse sebab penat Tuhan je tahu. They try their best to save other's life but for their own sake -mqasid syariah pun dia aci redah. I was like , kalau kena rompak mcm mana? Itu tak masuk your dokter bangun jam 4.30 pagi nak make sure bleh sampai hospital on time since his house to hospital take about 1 h 30 mins. So kekadang (selalu) tp terpaksa - maka buat aku rasa bersalah when H reply my whatsapp. Somehow i have note tau, when we meet up - apa yg saya nak tanya n discuss dgn dia ---- so H if marriage might be part of our discussion aci ke tak?